i think i need to change the name of my blog to....















after 3 years of gambling, lets recap what i've lost:

-a great girlfriend (im thinking the cheating thing also contributed to this loss?)
-a lot of money
-some hair
-respect for myself
-friends

not too bad. i didnt lose that much.

lets recap what i've won:

-a bottle of vodka from playersonly.com (cause we all know how much i love to drink!)
-a football from betgameday.com
-high blood pressure
-a lot of swim suit calendars from different sports books

okay, so i didnt really win anything. but i had a lot of fun while doing it! wait...i didnt have any fun. man im retarded!

for the last three years, i've made a lot of stupid decisions, especially the last six months. ive been very selfish. hmm...i think you could say im a huge dick?

i know this blog isnt going to reverse what ive done the past six months, but its not too late for me to change. i want people to know that i have a gambling problem and i want people to know that im trying to stop. so far so good. its been three weeks and im doing pretty good. its not saying i wont have any urges later, but i will deal with it then. i can only take it one day at a time. got keep busy. good thing i still have some friends left and a great supportive family.

i want to be like this again (pre-gambling days)...















i think it can happen (not the vietnam part, because im stuck with that. thats why i started!)....